Same old, same old

Long time no blogg.

Not much has changed though. I've been working, volunteering and going to school. School is done now though! Hellz to the fuck yea! I am so happy about that. My history teacher dropped the class for me so it wouldn't hurt my GPA cause I failed it. However math went very well! So at least I passed one class and for that I am glad. But now I get a much needed break.

Not sure if I am going to go back next semester. I don't know what I want to do anymore. There is like no way I can get into Vet Tech at this rate and even if I could....I don't know if I really want to. I want to do something fun and exciting when I grow up. I want to travel the world and see everything! I also want to work with animals and study them. I also really like psychology and want to help people. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm thinking about taking a photography class next semester though. Not for sure yet. I really love taking pictures. i wouldn't major in it but maybe like major in zoology or psychology and minor in photography...I think that would be really sweet. But I'm not really sure which I wanna do.

I'm getting so frustrated with my parents. They love me and care about me. I know that. But they keep pushing me and pushing me to do the things that I don't really want to do. They have their expectations of me and if i don't live up to them, I'm just a failure in their eyes. It means that I'm not trying hard enough and I'm not doing all that I can to succeed and while that may be somewhat true, it isn't that easy for me. I lack the motivation I need because I've been failing so much. Now I get one bad grade and it all goes downhill from there. I need to figure out how to fix myself before I can figure out what I want to do in life.

I met this guy. He goes to CC and is really nice but I can already tell it won't go anywhere. I can tell he is in it just to have "fun" which i'm like no way. The thing that gets me though is that I told him nothing was gonna happen like two or three times and he will still text me and ask to hang out. I don't understand guys. i am so confused by all of them. Seriously though, I also end up liking the jerks or the ones that are/will be taken. So not fairrr. Idk...we shall see where things go.

Ummm i still haven't done my christmas shopping yet =/....oops. haha I don't even know what I am getting people for sure yet. I might wanna figure that out. I think I am going tomorrow to get stuff...hopefully. I can't wait for christmas though! I love this time of yearr.

There is like so much more I could talk about but I am so freaking tired so I'm gonna go to bed.
Nightt

Lana

I should be in bed

butttttttttt I'm not....well i am...i should be sleeping though...

I went over to Corbin's with matt, caleb, and Joe for a bit but they all started to drink and the last time I did that with them, it was baddd and now I know my limit...don't ever have 8 or 9 shots again. Plus I have class at 9:30 and a curfew so I had to leave them to their lameness haha no they are all pretty awesome and fun to hang out with!

I hung out with them last night too, well minus Joe and caleb....plus a different joe and josh and jimmy. My goodness lots of J names apparently. We watched Black Dynamite and The Crazies. Very ummm interesting movies to say the least. It was a grand time. Those guys are turning out to be really cool.

It seems to be that picking on Alana is becoming a very favorite sport among people. Apparently people get a lot of amusement out of it haha. Though I can kinda see why...i am very easy to pick on but i didn't realize it would become this popular!

My sister leaves me again tomorrow to go watch her bf or whatever you call him, run a marathon down in Vegas...poor her....im so jealoussss. And now i have to be with mom and dad alone...ugh. At least I work all weekend.

Okay well i am tired and if I am going to survive the three hour class I have tomorrow...i should really get some sleep.

Night all!

Lana