Long time no blogg.
Not much has changed though. I've been working, volunteering and going to school. School is done now though! Hellz to the fuck yea! I am so happy about that. My history teacher dropped the class for me so it wouldn't hurt my GPA cause I failed it. However math went very well! So at least I passed one class and for that I am glad. But now I get a much needed break.
Not sure if I am going to go back next semester. I don't know what I want to do anymore. There is like no way I can get into Vet Tech at this rate and even if I could....I don't know if I really want to. I want to do something fun and exciting when I grow up. I want to travel the world and see everything! I also want to work with animals and study them. I also really like psychology and want to help people. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm thinking about taking a photography class next semester though. Not for sure yet. I really love taking pictures. i wouldn't major in it but maybe like major in zoology or psychology and minor in photography...I think that would be really sweet. But I'm not really sure which I wanna do.
I'm getting so frustrated with my parents. They love me and care about me. I know that. But they keep pushing me and pushing me to do the things that I don't really want to do. They have their expectations of me and if i don't live up to them, I'm just a failure in their eyes. It means that I'm not trying hard enough and I'm not doing all that I can to succeed and while that may be somewhat true, it isn't that easy for me. I lack the motivation I need because I've been failing so much. Now I get one bad grade and it all goes downhill from there. I need to figure out how to fix myself before I can figure out what I want to do in life.
I met this guy. He goes to CC and is really nice but I can already tell it won't go anywhere. I can tell he is in it just to have "fun" which i'm like no way. The thing that gets me though is that I told him nothing was gonna happen like two or three times and he will still text me and ask to hang out. I don't understand guys. i am so confused by all of them. Seriously though, I also end up liking the jerks or the ones that are/will be taken. So not fairrr. Idk...we shall see where things go.
Ummm i still haven't done my christmas shopping yet =/....oops. haha I don't even know what I am getting people for sure yet. I might wanna figure that out. I think I am going tomorrow to get stuff...hopefully. I can't wait for christmas though! I love this time of yearr.
There is like so much more I could talk about but I am so freaking tired so I'm gonna go to bed.
Nightt
Lana
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