BLECH!

There is something wrong with me.

I'm having too many stomach pains

I feel horrible all over

Going to the Doctor's tomorrow.

I just feel like crying. Nothing is going how I had hoped it would go this semester. I have a B- in math and an E in history. I was hoping to start out with a fairly decent GPA but apparently that isn't going to happen. I haven't met anyone new and lost friends that I already had. Going from everyone to hardly anyone is hard. I feel so alone. Not cared about.

I feel like I'm going back downhill again. I felt so good after getting that brain scan stuff done. I was so hopeful for the future and thought everything was going to go so much better but it hasn't so far. I still don't have an official diagnosis. It is still only guess. Random problems keep popping up all over the place and it is still going to see doctor after doctor. You need to see a nutritionist, and you need to see and allergist, oh lets through in a new psychiatrist, the doctor, my therapist, the ortho, the dentist. Test me for this or that. Try this vitamin or drug. See if this helps. You can't this with that. You need to watch this. Question after question. It is almost like I have to keep track of every single thing I think, eat, feel (both physically and emotionally) and do every minute of the day. I'm getting so overwhelmed. I'm so sick of all of this.

So very sick and tired of everything. Haven't I gone through enough? When will all of this end? I try and try and try and get no where. Absolutely no where.

There is something most definitely wrong with me.

Everyone seems to have their own idea of what it is except for me.



On the bright side...I got my braces off today. woot.

Lana