Phone call

So last night I had a phone call that has really been making me think of a lot of things. Mostly not good things. Like a lot of things that happened in the past. Things that I regret. Things that I was so young and naive about. Things that I also learned from and helped me grow.

I totally made a complete fool of myself. The things that I said and that I did, I can't believe really happened. I could take things and blow them into ten times a bigger deal than what they really were and in doing that I managed to fuck everything up causing myself to become even crazier. What the hell was I ever thinking?

I also realized that even if you've known someone for a while. You talk to them a lot, you hang out with them a lot, and you think you know everything there is to know about them. But you, in truth, most likely don't. What you find out can shock you. People have things going on in their lives that they don't even tell their closest friends about. A totally different side of them is shown and suddenly you have a much greater respect for this person.

I jump to conclusions about some things way too easily. I thought I knew someone inside and out. Turns out that I didn't. Now I feel totally horrible. There is nothing I can do either.

ohrgonasdkelkwsdnfaek...... That is my mind right now. I can't think straight worth crap. I'm freaking dizzy as crap right now too. So I shall have to finish my thoughts on this conversation later when I actually know what I'm saying. I'm sooo depressed. Blah. Night.

Lana