Make the bad things go away....

I'm a screw up.

One second everything is just peachy and then next, I"m getting yelled at by two different people. Apparently I'm the cause of them getting pissed at each other. I don't even know what happened though cause one of them is ignoring me and then other one said to ask the first one...so I got no where.

Why do things seem to always get worse near the end of the semester? I really can't deal with this right now. I"m already super stressed cause i'm failing one of my classes. I'm already having enough friend issues. Work has been hell lately. I've been sick. I've had so many appointments and things needing to be done. I"m going crazy and throw this on top of all it and everything gets 10 times worse.

I really shouldn't have friends anymore. I seem to cause too much trouble and ruin everything. I'm not even trying to ruin anything. I never want any of this to happen but yet it always does and I always end up in the middle of it feeling lost, confused and hurt and especially for someone like me, who has way too many complications and a horrible past and a tendency to become highly stressed too fast causing me to do/say things that aren't good....is not a good thing.

I want to be done. Don't with everything. Done with everyone.

I so tired of hurting.

I want to be understood.

I just want to be loved.