Clint Eastwood

Well I was going to start off right away with my tips and goals buttttttt my mom had to use the folder today and I forgot to get it back from her and I'm too lazy to go get it at this moment in time. SOOO, it's not going to happen tonight. Yea yea I know you guys are probably like "Yay! No super long post of Alana rambling on about healthy shit!" but don't worry, I'll have the folder back tomorrow =D

I can say however that my goal for today did not end up working out. I had no time whatsoever to go to the music store or even play the piano today. My parents don't like me playing after they get home from work and they are trying to do stuff and obviously I can't now cause they are in bed. I'm really wanting a keyboard now that I can put in my basement and play it whenever I want. Plus a keyboard would be in tune....unlike my piano which makes me cringe every time I play a chord. It's not pretty at all...super sadface =(((((((((( Maybe tomorrow I will go get music. Anyone want to join? Let me knowwwwwwww =D

It was definitely a music day for me today. I went on my sister's itunes and went through all of her music...she has very good taste by the way...and picked out some stuff that I really liked. Most of it was bands I never heard of before like: The Almost, The Bravery, Framing Hanley, The Hush Sound, Neon Trees, Mika, The Raconteurs, Saves the Day, Rogue Wave, Matchbox Romance, The White Stripes, Secret and a Whisper, and Tegan and Sara which Grant introduced me to today also! You guys should really check out most of these bands if you haven't already. I really like them all a lot from what I've heard of them already. YAY MUSIC! Plus it made my itunes music count jump up to 6173 songs now! That is a lot of music for me and I love it!!

OH! and the reason that I have Clint Eastwood as my title is because I've had it stuck in my head alllllllllll day today ever since I listened to it this morning! Which I did not mind one bit! Such a great song =)

So you know all that hope I was talking about yesterday? Yea, it's mostly gone right now...well at least the hope that the school year was going to go great. I had a math test on Tuesday and I had done all of my homework and was getting everything right and I asked my teacher questions that I had on the stuff I missed and I was feeling really great about how I was doing and confident that I was going to do super awesome on the test. I took the test and I felt I did really good. Nope. We got them back today and I got a 55% I almost broke down crying in the middle of class. I seriously did not think I did that bed. I felt so good about everything. Most of it was stuff like I forgot to switch the signs or to chance something from a negative to a positive. I was so looking forward to starting out the school year fresh with good grades and now I'm failing math. I don't know if you guys really understand how like crushing this is to me. This wasn't suppose to happen. I was suppose to do good this year! I did everything I was suppose to do! Take notes, do all my homework, ask questions and this is what I get out of all that. I'm dreading to see how the rest of the class will go now. I feel like such a failure.
And with history, that missed week is killing me cause I have no idea what I'm doing. We have too different books we have to read and our reading assignment for tomorrow was read like 30-40 pages from each book and take reading notes on them but I have no idea what to even take notes on. They jam so much stuff into those few pages. It's so overwhelming. And then we have to pick something that popped out at us and be able to explain why in class...okay like nothing *pops* out at me, at least not enough to want to discuss in class. To make it better we also have to write down questions we have and one of them can't be answered by the book. Then to top it all off, we have too quizzes on the books tomorrow in class and he doesn't give us like any help to what is going to be on it and if you're like me, I forget things after I read them by the next day. Like I will remember reading about it but I won't remember details which won't help me at all in a quiz. I'm so screwed! Imagine if I was actually taking a full class schedule. I think I would die.

Sorry for that. I just really needed a rant. I'm going to get a tutor in math so hopefully that will help...we shall see. I just have to make sure to keep my confidence up which is going to be hard at this rate. I'm just scared at this point...like terrified. I don't want a repeat of last semester....

I guess I still have lots of questions running through my mind. I'm finding that I tend to worry a lot about, well pretty much about everything. I constantly worry about what people think about me. Like are they annoyed by me talking to them? Do they think I'm stupid? Do they think my clothes are ugly? Do they think I'm weird? Do they think I'm fat? Like sometimes I wish I could read peoples mind just so I know. That could end up being a bad thing though...hmmm maybe that wouldn't be such a nice thing. And I constantly worry about life but I'm sure you guys already know that.

I'm going to invent a thought switch. It will be able to turn your thoughts off whenever you don't want to hear them. Wouldn't that be like so totally awesome! I think it would at least lol.

Soooooo run down of my day. My mom woke me up an hour before we had to be downtown and I was not ready to get up at all. I was like in a dead sleep and it felt sooooooo friggen good butttt it for sure wasn't enough sleep cause I was sooooo tired today. Like I felt like I could drop down on the ground a sleep at any second. Not fun at all lol. Then we came home and I started the whole getting music thing when my mom decided we should go out for lunch. So we ran to sunset to drop of a direct deposit form and then to this harvest health store in Hudsonville to get some vitamins for me and thennnn we went to Rainbow Grill for lunch. I had their broccoli cheese soup. Theirs is my favorite with Agnus's (sunsets cook) cheese broccoliy coming in a close second. After that I had a doctors appointment to talk about stuff in D.C. and it happened to be time to get shots so i got a couple and now my arms are sore. Boo to the max. After that we went home and I did some homework and then it was time for math class. Class was super boring but Mr. Weaver told a really good joke. I would put it on here but it's kinda long soooo if you want to know, ask me =D After class I came home, ate food, thought about working on my homework but got distracted =) hehe.....then I actually did my homework and took a shower and now I'm writing this post! I know, such an exciting day!

I'm so glad that it's fall. I seriously love wearing jeans and sweatshirts and just fall clothes in general! All the leaves on the trees are turning too so it's going to be soooo pretty soon! Ahhh I can't wait! Happyface! =D

I'm sitting here trying to think of exciting things to talk about but I have like none. My life is like super boring right now lol. This week should be a good one though! Sounds like we got lots of friend hanging time that needs to be done! And with my friends that is going to for sure not be boring. Well okay we have lots of times where we don't do anything and just sit there but the conversations can make up for that. Ohh how I love how silly they are =)

Well I'm sure once I end this I will think of more stuff to say and if that's the case I will probably be back on adding to it. Hopefully it's actually good stuff. This wasn't a very good post when I think about it. Ohhhhh wellllll it happens! =) Well I'm going to crawl in bed and finish reading my oh so fun history book! Yay! Can't you see my excitement! Haha yeaa lol. Night everyone! I hope you guys have a wonderful night and an amazing day tomorrow!

Haha oops... Mom just told me I had to go to bed since class is early tomorrow....it's only 11...that's early for some people *cough* Grant *cough* but I suppose it is getting late for normal people like me. =P

Okay so this just got brought up in a conversation and I needed to blog it! Soo ever since I was little I've written my capital Y's backwards, like slanted to the right instead of the left. Well in math today I wrote a capital Y and I still write them backwards! but it feels totally weird to me now to write them the right way. Isn't that weird? It's my Fun Fact of Alana today! =D

Lana