Church, work, movies. That pretty much sums up my day right there. I suppose I could go into a little more detail there just to make this post a little longer. So here we go!
My mom woke me up this morning in the middle of a fricken crazy dream. Like I was in some research place and they were testing different animals and different stuff with them. Like mating and whatnot. The one species of bird mates with their mouths. Like the male I could you could say regurgitates his sperm up and passes it down the females throat............okay that sounds soo messed but that's what happened in in! There was also like a tons of frogs and this crocodile just laying around. It was sooo strange. I can't go into much more detail than that. I remember dreaming some different stuff but I can't put it all together enough to tell you what actually happened! Wait! I remember something about me having to drive around to different stores and gas stations looking for something...I think it was a drink of some sort....grr I can't remember. I was like running late or all the stores were closing too and I started off in the mall for some reason. idk my dreams tend to be insane and all over the place. That's what you get for having an overactive brain I suppose! =)
But yea...I was very upset and the first time my mom woke me up she told me she had made eggs for me for breakfast...well I kinda fell back asleep after she told me that so when she came back to ask me if I needed to take a shower, she didn't realize it but she had also woken me up a second time and I couldn't remember if she had really made me eggs or if that was just part of my dream also...so naturally I got up and sure enough! There were eggs on the stove for me! So I ate them and got ready for church.
Well on the way to church is when I started to not feel good. My stomach was very upset and I had no idea why. Oh! and something totally awesome! These three sisters were visiting our church from Texas and one of their husbands had recently passed. Well I guess he had made a bucket list but never got to complete it so his wife and her (or his) sisters are doing it for him! One of the things on his list was to visit my church apparently! I thought that was pretty awesome. Props to Rob for announcing that. Church was good. You guys have to listen to some of Rob's sermons. He is hilarious. He was reading the first chapter of Ezekiel and it was all of this crazy messed up stuff ( read it and you'll see what I mean ) and after he read it out loud he was like "And this, kids, is why you don't do drugs" I guess it was one of those you had to be there things but soooooooo funny! I had to leave early for work though.
So I left church, stepping on a few people's feet on the way...I felt kinda bad about that but they seriously don't give you enough space between the chairs to get out so it's not all my fault....I think I whacked a guy on the head too with my purse....Oops =/ My dad asked me to record the lions game and naturally I forgot to do that before I left so I ran home and quick did that. I still wasn't feeling well either. Then I rushed to worked and changed and ended up only being the second person there which was awesome cause that meant I was second to pick sections.
Work was really slow. Nothing weird happened and I didn't get an cranky people today either! Woot! We got out of there early too. Dad was home from colorado by the time I got home from work. Crazy to think that he left yesterday for Denver and is already back today.
So then I saw the new Vlog and laughed a lot at it. Even though it wasn't as good as the first....sorry guys =/....it was still good and just knowing them made me laugh. Especially the part explaining getting locked out of the house. Sooo sad lol.
After I had a good laugh at that, I was debating on if I wanted to go workout or not but I still wasn't feeling well...better than the morning but not well enough to work out so I took a shower! Then sat around for about an hour trying to think of something to do. I think it was like ignore Alana day or something cause I feel like everyone I texted either took forever to respond or didn't respond at all so that kinda sucked...maybe they are all just annoyed with me or something...who knows. Ohh goodness...I hope I'm not being annoying. I feel like people would tell me though if I really was...at least I hope they would! Cause I would feel like totally bad if that were the case =/.
Then I decided to go downstairs and watching some TV and ended up watching Dear John and The Princess and the Frog. Two pretty good movies I would say. Dad came down though at the end of Dear John and kept talking and what not and after the movie was all like "Look up this and that" and I just wanted to be like Go AWAY! I enjoy my basement time to myself thank you very much. But I'm a nice person and we ended up watching the Princess and the Frog. He left to make food at the end though and comes back down and starts asking me all these questions about the movie. Okay you should have stayed and watched it if you really wanted to know what happened that bad! Not my fault you left! Don't get me wrong, I love my Dad, like a lot but sometimes he just gets on my nerves....I guess it has to do with what happened a few years ago....I just get defensive automatically around him now...I got so used to having to get that way so now I just do it out of habit...idk.
My therapist thinks that what happened could have been a long term cause of some of the things I'm dealing with today. I never really thought of it but it was one of those major events in my life that I'm and never going to forget and I probably was scarred by it so it would only make sense. Sometimes I wish it didn't change though...life seemed much better with me and my parents. They didn't pay that much attention to me then...kinda sad when you think about it but it was actually kinda nice. Idk I think my deeper thoughts have come back now. Oh and if you don't know what I'm talking about, just ask me. I just don't want to put it on my blog. But I am very open talking about it so feel free =)
"Do you, do you wanna lose it all? Cause this is more than just a dance hall drug, you can't wait to fall in love"
Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts. Sooo many thoughts going through my head. Soo many feelings and emotions...of course. That part of my brain is over active lol. By there are a lot of things, feelings, that I have never had before and I'm not sure exactly how to handle them. I've never been in a situation like this before...well not exactly like this. It's strange to me. I used to think that I knew everything about certain stuff. People came to me all the time asking for advice and I've had so much shit happen to me before I thought I knew how to handle everything. For once however, I don't. It's a strange feeling to me. I mean like how do you show people what they really mean to you? How do you talk to them without being annoying? How do you tell people how awesome they really are? Like I have no idea and I don't want to completely mess things up. Knowing me though, I'm probably way over reacting/ over thinking everything too much. Relax, go with the flow, be yourself. A lot easier said then done but it is true. That is really what you need to do I suppose. Such is life! =)
I have a feeling it's going to be another long week without seeing any of my friends. Everyone seems to be so busy now, myself included! It is so hard going that long without seeing them though! Anddd I have to work all weekend too so probably won't see them then either, then it's going to be another long week so more like two weeks I won't see anyone! Not ever the people close to home! I have the next weekend off though soooo PARTAYY! I'm going to miss everyone a lot though....It always makes my day when I'm with one of my friends for suree! Hmm...maybee I will be able to sneak Bryan away from Halo for a bit...we shall see. =) Love you guys!!!! =)
My itunes is on shuffle right now. I really love (okay not really love but they are pretty fricken awesome!) whoever created shuffle mode. It's times like these when my mind is all over the place and I really don't have a mood for anything, when shuffle mode comes in handy. A lot of stuff pops up that I haven't heard in FOREVER! It's crazyyyyyy. I like it a lot. A lot of my new stuff is popping up too which gives me a chance to listen to them! Ohh music, what would I do without you. You always can cheer me up whenever I need it and you always play the perfect songs that fit my mood. You never fail me. HEY! Maybe I should just date my itunes! =) Hahahahaha Just Kidding!!! Sorry itunes, I love you but I just need something...rather someone...a little more....let's say....Living!
Omg so Charlie has been following me around allllllll day. Where ever I sit down...BOOM!...he is on my lap. I go downstairs and he jumps up on the couch and I'm sitting with my knees up so he sits down facing me and starts pawing at my legs. So finally i unfold my legs and put them straight out and in an instance. He is doing circles on my lap and then finally decides to lay down. He stayed there the wholeeeee fricken time too! Well until my mom had to let him out so she goes to let him out and then all the sudden I hear him running down the stairs, jumps up on the couch and back onto my lap. Such a silly dog. At least I don't need a blanket! He's nice and warm =). And I loves him lots and he is so cute!! So I let him get away with it although sometimes it's really annoying like when you want to move or sit a different way and he is like passed out and difficult to move...plus i feel bad waking him up lol. Gotta love Charles =) Oh yea, the funny thing though is that when I come upstairs to my bedroom, he goes into my parents room and not mine. Strange right? I'm guessing it's cause he has a lot more room to sprawl out on my parents by than on mine...he's such a bed hog! Like seriously, who knew such a little dog could take up so much space. Oh and okay you perverted minds, don't you darn say anything about this lol, but when you are laying in bed and your legs are spread apart, he has to lay right between them, not next to you, no, between the legs. He is so weird, but I love him! Haha oh and I told you it sounded wrong =P
Oh! I forgot to mention that again I'm not doing the tips and goals. I promise tomorrow that I will do them. The folder still isn't back in my room and again I really don't feel like going to find it. It is way too scary downstairs at night. With like no lights on but windows every where so there are like dark shadows and they always look like they move! Plus the freaky noises my house makes on top of that. I'm pretty sure I can go from the basement to my room in under 5 seconds at night after my parents have gone to bed and they turned all the lights on. I don't like the dark. Well I guess it's more like I don't like not being able to see everything. I get shivers just thinking about it!
Well I should probably be getting to bed soon. I am like super tired and still not feeling the greatest. Like mommy always says, "get lots of rest and drink lots of water and you'll feel 10 times better the next day!" But then again, she is also the one to say "suck it up, you're fine" when you complain of something not feeling right. Gotta love Moms! Plus I haven't been getting as much sleep as I'm used to this past week...although I suppose it is a lot more than some people I know that have been obessed with a certain game this past week/weekend *cough* Bryan, Ryan and Grant.......=) Get some sleep! I mean it! Or I will come over to where ever you guys are and tie you down to the bed and force you to sleep!! I'm dead serious too......
"All the right friends in all the right places" Wow haven't heard this song in a while! Goodness.
OMG! You know what song I've had stuck in my head the whole day thanks to the girls at work?
Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day
Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day
Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are
Yeaaa Just the way you are by Bruno Mars. Alllll fricken day! Though I do like this song so I guess I really didn't mind it at all! Lol. I hope you all have it stuck in your head now too =)
Okay for real this time...I'm going to bed! I think so at least...probably. Oh goodness it's only 10:30....I've been going to bed at like 1 or 2 the past few nights. It's sooooo early! But at least I will get enough sleep. Oh and if I have anymore crazy dreams tonight (which I probably will cause that usually happens when I think a lot right before I go to sleep) I shall tell you all about them in the morning
"I just want back in your head"
Too many good songs keep playing before I can finish this! Goodness! Haha okay. Seriously...I'm going now. Good Night everyone!! Try and get a decent amount of sleep, or just lie to me and tell me you did when I ask you guys in the morning =) Hope everyone has a great day of classes tomorrow and doesn't get loaded with too much homework! Nigh Night!
P.S. feel free to enter your own title..I had no idea what to put for today lol
=D
Lana
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