Have you any idea why a raven is like a writing desk?

Oh lets see...where to start. Well my day was fine. I worked at the zoo from 8-4 and got to play with lemurs! Well from behind a window. I have pictures. I shall have to post them sometime. They are soooo cute! Right after the zoo I headed to math where we just did review for the upcoming test. So boring. I went home, ate food, and watched a movie. Now I've been messing around on-line and currently am writing this blog. Very exciting day. I know.

Wow...I never thought that I would hear my parents say we need money. That is what my mom told me when I asked her why she was selling her car. You have to understand that I have had an amazing childhood. I got pretty much everything that I asked for. I was always able to get my parents to buy me things. We had traveled across the country seeing everything! As I got older they bought me a car, paid for my gas, let me go to Romania, the Bahamas, Washington D.C. I honestly can say that I was a spoiled child...although I believe the reason I was has to do with things that I rather now get into at the moment. So when I hear that we need more money...it comes as a huge shock to me. My parents have always been well off and just a few years ago we were completely debt free, no house payments or anything. Now I feel really bad about all the things they have spent money on me recently...like I feel horrible. Apparently my Dad is making less than half of what he had been making which is crazy cause he is like the top insurance agent at his company. Idk...it just strikes me hard.

So my mom walks downstairs while I'm watching my movie and was all like "So this is totally random but on Sunday we are having a shower for Erin (my cousin)..." and I was like "A shower for Erin, why?" and she was like "She's getting married, didn't you know that?" and I was like "Ummmm no...." and she was like "I thought we told you then." and I was like "Mom you never tell me anything! What the heck!" and then she continued on to ask if I was going to be able to go. So yea...apparently my cousin is getting married. The wedding will be in Costa Rica though, that's where she lives and where her fiance is from. She's been doing Mission work in that area for a while now. Pretty awesome I gotta say!

My thoughts have been going crazyyyyy today. Like seriously. I worry about things way too much and I have a feeling that I'm wrong about of a lot of things...or maybe I'm hoping I am...cause I really don't know. I just wonder what things that I have been told are truth or lies. I almost feel like I'm being told what I want to hear. I just have a hard time knowing what to think anymore. I know what I want to think but I can't help thinking about the things that I don't what to think and that causes me to think even more. Am I doing anything right though? I have no idea. I don't want to be annoying but at the same time I don't want to be put aside and forgotten about. I can't help feeling second and not important. Like I said, way too many things going through my head. I don't want to really go into anymore detail than that.

Tampon.

I totally was thinking about something today in math that I needed to write about in my blog and I was going to write it down but of course I told myself that I didn't need to and that I would remember....haha. It is like really bugging the crap out of me though. You have no idea!

Have you any idea why a raven is like a writing desk?

I totally feel like my schedule is crazy and that it's about to become crazier. I have school, work, homework, volunteering, a billion appointment, a ton of things I need to do like get a tutor, talk to teachers, get an oil change, get gas, go to the mall, get kaki pants. Lots of things. And then I might be adding yet another job to everything. Oh and I was talking with the zoo keeper that I was working with and she suggested that I talk to the volunteer coordinator and see if I can't follow the vet tech who works at the zoo around. So that would be yet another thing to add to my schedule. Then I worry about things on top of all that. I'm starting to get kinda stressed out. But not near as bad as last year. It's funny...okay well not really funny but the way I can tell if I am stressed out is cause my back right shoulder, the muscle there will just start throbbing and a huge knot with form. That also happnens when I've been working all day...which I have. At least I know now how to handle my stress and not let it get to me. Things are still going good!

Smart Water doesn't make you smart.

Mmmm my hands smell good right now...not that I was just sitting here smelling them or anything... Okay I was but not gonna lie, I really like the way my hands smell after I take a shower cause it almost has that chlorine smell to it but not quite and mmmm it just smells good!

Fun fact: John Ball zoo is 119 years old. CRAZY! I just found that out and apparently they had a bear escape in the late 1800's and they couldn't herd it back in so they just shot it. Hunting was a way of life back then I suppose lol. Oh and the bear's name was Jack.

So many people have been asking me to work this weekend. But I have this whole weekend off and I'm sorry but I'm going to keep it that way. I haven't had a full weekend off since like the start of summer, not including the days that I asked off. I just want to have a weekend to do whatever I want and actually have a sunday that I don't have to work cause I know for sure that i've worked the last 4 or 5 sundays now.

Okay that is all I got for now. I'm sure there is stuff that I was going to say that I forgot about. I might be up for a little while still so maybe I will update if I remember them....If i remember to that is.

At least I won't be woken up out of a very deep sleep like I was this morning. Like I was seriously sleeping so good, so sound and having a good dream too and of course they radio goes on.

My hand still smells good! =)

Alrighty people. I hope you all have a really good night. Feel free to text me whenever! Have a great day tomorrow. Sleep well, sweet dreams and I shall talk laterr!

Lana

Can't blame you for thinking
That you never really knew me at all
I tried to deny you
But nothing ever made me feel so wrong

I thought I was protecting you
From everything that I go through
But I know that we got lost along the way

Here I am with all my heart
I hope you understand
I know I let you down
But I'm never gonna make
That mistake again
You brought me closer
To who I really am
Come take my hand
I want the world to see
What you mean to me


Just know that I'm sorry
I never wanted to make you feel so small
Our story is just beginning
But let the truth break down these walls (oh yeah yeah)

And every time I think of you
I think of how you pushed me through
And show me how much better I could be

Here I am with all my heart
I hope you understand
I know I let you down
But I'm never gonna make
That mistake again
You brought me closer
To who I really am
Come take my hand
I want the world to see
What you mean to me

You make me feel like I'm myself
Instead of being someone else
I wanna live that every day
You say what no one else was saying
You know exactly how to get to me
You know it's what I need
It's what I need yeah